Prayer of Jabez

Oh, that You would bless me indeed,
and enlarge my territory,
that Your hand will be with me,
and that You would keep me from evil,

that it may not harm me.





Christus vincit! Christus regnat! Christus imperat!

Gratitude

Thank you Lord God for your grace,
For your bounty,
I feel you in my heart, Your warm presence
fills it to overflowing
Thank you
You have spoken Lord
that You will care for me
that You will not drop me
that You will provide for me
that You will look after my cares
that You will provide for my needs
I am grateful Lord for all these that you
whisper in my heart
I trust in all You promise Lord
I am grateful that I am the abject recipient of your grace Lord
Thank you for everything Lord
I woke up with a troubled heart Lord but
Giving You praise and thanksgiving cleared the dark murmurings of my heart
Thank you Lord
May all that I think, do, act, and say be for Your greater glory
May all these be my offering to You, my act of worship
and may You find them a sweet oblation worthy of Your love and grace
Command Your unfathomable blessings on me Lord
I am ready to receive and always ready to give
that I, in my own way, may become a blessing to others

Worship

I wake up not feeling as great as I want to yet 

I thank Thee oh God

I stood up and felt the burden of my infirmities,

yet I still thank Thee oh Lord

I open my doors to let into my room 

the wonder of Your Creation

and I thank Thee of Lord 

that you have given me another day

full of joy, wander, abundace, prosperity,

A day not like any other day

A day full of blessings

A day ever better than yesterday

Lord, may I live every second of this day

in total worship of your goodness and greatness

I offer my every thought, every word, every act, every deed

in Worship of YOU.

May you find my life today worthy of offering to You 

in Worship

 

Metanoia

Good morning God of all creation!

Blessed are you for all your creation

May my worship be worthy of the life you have given me

Grateful am I for the simple things in life

For truly the most basic things in life give me joy 

more than any thing I could conjure to 

commemorate and celebrate my so called achievements
they will never compare  

The serenity of slowly breathing in the cool crisp air of your creation

The song of water cascading on stones, falling on rocks

The embrace of cool breeze on warm skin

The clear cool light of the morning pushing back the curtain 

of the night, 

of the soul,

of the mind, 

of the heart.

Truly I give my praise and worship to you Lord

Blessed are you Lord God of Creation! 

I live for Thee alone, in worship and in praise,

Forgive me for my transgressions

Forgive me for every moment 

that I lose sight of the everlasting prize
Forgive my pride and folly
that I thought it was only me and my hands
for all that I have in life

that I listen to my own sweet desires 

of partaking my bitter poison

that I trusted only in myself

that I believed that I alone dictate my future

Thank you Lord God for all these follies
and the realization that I have been worshipping
my own paper moon

Metanoia

Thank you for the seed of change planted in my heart
The heart which is the ear to the voice of God

No change can be truly wrought by mind and logic alone
Only the heart can move an immoveable mountain of attitude
Only the heart can overrule the mind
The heart that hears the voice of God
The heart that moves one 

to action,

to change,

to believe, 

to act, 

to accept,

to trust,

to give up everything to you Lord

Thank you for the seed of change
for in having it I truly own up my choice

to glorify, bless and thank God

Metanoia

a change of heart 

a gift from God

to act 

to move

it sets free will in motion

in accordance with the dictates of one's heart

to glorify the Name of God

to bless Him

worship Him

to leave behind the clutter of a life I thought magnificent

I thought I was the master of 

to leave behind my intoxication with the 

belief that I stand astride the universe
Thank you lord for making me realize
that the sweetest achievement
is simply to give my best in worship of your Name

Christus vincit! Christus regnat! Christus imperat!

Christus Vincit

I am grateful that Christ conquered my heart
I am grateful for the time that I now have to contemplate on the beauty of our existence
I am grateful for understanding that God created me solely to worship him
I am grateful to know that there is no other purpose in my life but to worship God in all that I do
I am grateful to know that every act I do, every thought I think, every word I utter, every emotion I feel is an act of worship
I am grateful to know that being my best in what I think, feel, do, and say is the best form of worship I can give God, to be at my best is to worship him best.
I am grateful for the moments of contemplation that I am given
I am grateful for the realizations that I have
I am grateful for the richness that I am given
I am grateful for the joys that I have, the bounty and the prosperity
I am grateful I have found Christ
I am grateful that Christ conquers, Christ reigns, Christ rules!

Christus vincit, Christus regnat, Christus imperat!

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Today, I am grateful for the simple pleasures of life. I know, I am guilty of not using the hours wisely. I could have gone out, I could have gone prospecting, I could have called prospects, I could have set appointments, I could have spent the entire day doing more than just what I've been doing: facing my computer, letting life pass by.

Although I've let so many opportunities pass me by today, I refuse to be defeated by myself. I refuse to be dejected by what I allowed myself to do, I refuse to be beaten down by my undisciplined self. I am grateful that despite the grip my undisciplined self has on my life,  I am still in control of how I should feel. I am grateful that I know I can decide that today will be the last day of letting the time flow while I sit still by its riverbanks refusing to ride its tides.  I am grateful for the opportunities for introspection that I am given. I am grateful for remembering that I did not just waste my day because I remember that I have so much to be grateful for:

I am grateful that I was finally able to write and send my apologies to people that I believe I have hurt.
I am grateful that I am still able to send emails to Noel, to Belle, Paulyne, to Dean, to Donna, to Remigio, to Mildred. I am grateful that despite my inability to trace Floripe, I was decided to send my apologies to her as well.

I am grateful that finally I was able to do my acts of humility or acts of contrition.
I am grateful that finally I was able to tell Noel that I deeply apologize for the hurts I caused him.
I am grateful that I was able to realize the need to be contrite of heart and to ask for their forgiveness
I am grateful that despite what others may say about what I did,  I still went on whatever they may say.

I am grateful for Gina, for Susan, for Manny and for Mayel, for Plet & Emong, for Gettie, for Teddy, for my friends at my former office. I am grateful for they understood and treated me and Bong as partners and not just each other's passing fancy.

I am grateful for Dada, Rose, Aling Dolor, Mike, Betong, Angie and the rest for they really cared for Bong much more than I did.

I am grateful for Larry, despite his misgivings, he paid his respects to Bong
I am grateful for Anton, despite his ulterior motives, at least he paid his last respects to Bong
I am grateful for Bong's alta friends, their absence made me realize how much I meant to Bong
I am grateful for everything I have now, warts and all, the problems and tribulations
I am grateful that I am able to smile despite or inspite of everything,
Thank you Lord for being in my heart,
Thank you for being my personal savior,
Thank you for being there, in your silence, in your absence, I know in my heart that you are doing everything, moving everything, making all things necessary without my knowledge, just so you can give me the best of your intentions, that I may reach my destined fulfillment as you planned.

Thank you for my sundering my employment for only then did I really learn how to trust in you fully. The lessons are difficult to learn, they are too hard to pass, but pass I them I must, tread the path, work the lessons, I must because I believe God, you sent them to me because I needed to learn and experience each and every joy and sorrow, failures and successes that I have had the past 2 years.

I am truly grateful Lord that you gave me this chance. Not everyone is given the chance that I was given, not everyone is led to the path that I have taken. I am grateful Lord for in all my sufferings I truly feel your love, in all my joys I truly feel your presence. I am grateful for everything Lord because if you have not forged me in the fires of the past 2 years, I wouldn't be able to handle and accept the losses that I have been suffering.

Thanks you Lord. Thank you Universe.

20 May - From valley to valley, from trough to trough I am with thee Lord, my joy and strenght

I realize today that in less than 12 months I've lost one of my best friends, a victim of murder; my partner, a victim of metastatic pancreatic cancer and by the 27th of next month my nephew and nieces, all 4 of them would have migrated to Canada. Then I shall be alone in our house happy with my aging mom and dad. Just the 3 of us living joyfully.

I am grateful for all these losses that I am going through for they only make it clearer to me that there is really nothing constant in this life other than God who is always there for me, for every trough of tears I drown in, every valley of unhappiness I walk through, I am grateful knowing that God is there, in the silence, in the stillness, in the loneliness of every experience, I know He is there just as He is in every peal of laughter, every jolt of joy, every smile, every second of sunlight, in the very air I breath, in everything I see, in every sensation and feeling I have, I am grateful for the realization that God is in all of it!

I am grateful for the frailties of my humanity, snap of anger, the loss of temper, the untoward response, not because I see God in them but precisely because it shows me how human I am, that I have feet of clay, yet I also realize that in all these where there is an absence of Godliness, these are opportunities precisely to reach out to God, to discern what he wants me to do, to hold that last straw without breaking, to cool the temper simmering to boiling, to hold the tongue, to tie the hand the smites, to close the eyes of malice, and to breath in and to fill my being with the calming breath of God. 

I am grateful for the tender mercies and glorious philanthropies of other men, the focused intentions of someone like Iliac Diaz, ever searching to provide meaningful inventions and discoveries that would help or would create improvements meant not for the top 1% but for the marginalized for whom the simplest necessities of the rich are like the gift of the Gods.

I am grateful for the almost 157,680,000 seconds, each and every one of those seconds I spent with Bong before he passed away, each and every second of joy, sadness, trust, distrust, hope and failures, disappointments and successes and love that we shared.

I am grateful for all my friends who generously contributed to Bong's family, which made it very easy for them to give him a very decent burial. I am grateful for the love my friends have for me, for they treated Bong truly as my partner

I am grateful for my memories of Bong, who loved me with his entire being. Without Bong, I would not have known how it is to be loved by someone who really has nothing to material to give, yet could make me feel that I am truly loved by him.

I am grateful for rediscovering my faith during the past 2 years, had I not gone through all my tribulations, I would not have rediscovered my faith and if I had not rediscovered my faith in God, I would not have survived all my tribulations. 

I am grateful for whatever life throws my way because it makes me feel alive with God!