I am grateful for all these losses that I am going through for they only make it clearer to me that there is really nothing constant in this life other than God who is always there for me, for every trough of tears I drown in, every valley of unhappiness I walk through, I am grateful knowing that God is there, in the silence, in the stillness, in the loneliness of every experience, I know He is there just as He is in every peal of laughter, every jolt of joy, every smile, every second of sunlight, in the very air I breath, in everything I see, in every sensation and feeling I have, I am grateful for the realization that God is in all of it!
I am grateful for the frailties of my humanity, snap of anger, the loss of temper, the untoward response, not because I see God in them but precisely because it shows me how human I am, that I have feet of clay, yet I also realize that in all these where there is an absence of Godliness, these are opportunities precisely to reach out to God, to discern what he wants me to do, to hold that last straw without breaking, to cool the temper simmering to boiling, to hold the tongue, to tie the hand the smites, to close the eyes of malice, and to breath in and to fill my being with the calming breath of God.
I am grateful for the tender mercies and glorious philanthropies of other men, the focused intentions of someone like Iliac Diaz, ever searching to provide meaningful inventions and discoveries that would help or would create improvements meant not for the top 1% but for the marginalized for whom the simplest necessities of the rich are like the gift of the Gods.
I am grateful for the almost 157,680,000 seconds, each and every one of those seconds I spent with Bong before he passed away, each and every second of joy, sadness, trust, distrust, hope and failures, disappointments and successes and love that we shared.
I am grateful for all my friends who generously contributed to Bong's family, which made it very easy for them to give him a very decent burial. I am grateful for the love my friends have for me, for they treated Bong truly as my partner
I am grateful for my memories of Bong, who loved me with his entire being. Without Bong, I would not have known how it is to be loved by someone who really has nothing to material to give, yet could make me feel that I am truly loved by him.
I am grateful for rediscovering my faith during the past 2 years, had I not gone through all my tribulations, I would not have rediscovered my faith and if I had not rediscovered my faith in God, I would not have survived all my tribulations.
I am grateful for whatever life throws my way because it makes me feel alive with God!
