Saturday, March 6, 2010

Kahapon Laman

Pinagpapasalamat ko kahapon ang pagiging masigasig ng mga cliente ko. I am thankful for the sudden advance payment of Pletypus and I am also thankful for Carleng's willingness to sign off on N20. I am thankful for the lunch I had with Carleng and Tea and I am also grateful for the sharing I got from Tea. I am grateful for my nephew's birthday, his last to be celebrated in this house, in this plot of land, in this city, in this province, on this island, in this country, for sometime soon he and his siblings will all be migrating. I am thankful for the better life they are having now, which will become so much better once they have migrated. I am grateful for having had the capacity to buy some cake for my nephew's birthday.

I am grateful for finally accepting the fact that the facade I built about me being a good tax lawyer is nothing but that. In this acceptance, I just have to be thankful for people who I thought were my detractors but perhaps were only an astute observer of my capabilities. Thus, let this be my last paean to them, my mentors, my critics, my career reviewers: FGT, MTM, CFM, AOM, JTV, and many many more, specially the partners from my alma mater, who actually were just being honest with their assessment of myself. I am thankful that this late I am able to finally look myself in the mirror and admit that they were right. I forgive myself for not trying to be the best of what or who I should have been. I forgive myself for all the lost time I wasted. I forgive myself for all I have done to sabotage myself.

I am grateful my lease on life is not yet over and because of that I am on my way to find my very own yellow brick road. I am grateful for being myself ready to accept all the blessings of the Universe, of the Power, of God. Thank you!